There are so many reason why i am posting this just nmow- and all i gotta say is, God dosn't care about me, so no-one else dose either. Becuase i already know that no-one will bother to read this, they will just look past it as they have done in the past. so i'll keep it simple for the people who MIGHT actually read this.

My mom is dead and i'm living at an aunt and uncle's place, school's almost over and next year's high school. i. will. fail. miserably. I feel like everyone's mad at me and everything i do is dissapointing some one. I like my mom hates me cuz she hasn't done anything to tell me she's watchging me. Is this normal for a 13 year old to believe that god's agianst her and he's just out there to make her life miserable? Or am I just insane?

I'm sticking to the cpu becuase there are some places where i'm just a normal kid and my life has nothing bad in it. Why? Becuase then i have nothing to worry about. So just let me put on my mask and pretend that nothing's wrong.

I've been fooling myself all along... i know it'd come to this the day me mom found out she had cancer. I thought i could just hide the fact that i'm afraid of my mom dieing, but a song had remindded me my pain and it seeming as though i'll never get through this. My mom is thinking abbout giving up the fight and just live until god takes her from me like he did my uncle... i'm gonna hate him all over agian... i just know it. I don't feel like talking about it to my mom because that'll make her hurt even more when she knows what this is doing to me and to know that she's causeing me she much sorrow even though she's not trying to will just kill her. That's why i'm talking to my computer and allowing people i barly know read whats going on in my shitty life. I know i'm not the only one, and i know that people are wrose off than i am, and that's what makes me so angry with God. Why would he cause put much pain on us...?

Anyway, my mom has cancer, she's be fight for about 5 months now and she feels like she's fighting an impossable battle. She's signing on to hospis so she can be as comfortable as possable and so she can rest and stuff like that. I hate seeing mo in so much pain, but i don't wanna let her go, i know i'm being selfish but we all are when it comes to death.

Every time i see her i think of how it used to be, when she looked so strong and proud, and ready to do everything... but now she just looks she frail and helpless, i'm finding it hard to get school stuff done it seems all i want to do is read and draw in school and escape into my little world where everything is perfect...

I need to stop holding things inside and cause myself such destruction, but how i've always been.

1. Name- Tiffany
2. Nickname- Tiff, Tiffy, Tie Die, Tiffy Tie
3. Status- single
4. Zodiac sign- 0.o dunno
5. Male or female- Female
6. Elementary- no remeber
7. Middle School- Spart/Tomah middle, Tomah/Sparta, Wisconsin
8. High School- havn't got that far
9. Smart- TT.TT
10. Hair color- DARK Brown
11. Long or short- medium
12. Loud or Quiet- both
13. Sweats or Jeans- neither TT.TT
14. Phone or Camera- both
15. Health freak- sorta... ish
16. Drink or Smoke?- NO WAY NO HOW NO CAN DO
17. Do you have a crush on someone?- yep
18. Eat or Drink- xD
19. Piercings- none
20. Tattoos- none

FIRSTS:
23. First piercing- ears
24. First best friend- Morgan
25. First award- honestly.. xD
26. First crush- o.0 Shawn
27. First pet- Skiler
28. First big vacation- none, sadly
30. First big birthday- What like, sweet 16? not yet

CURRENTLY:
49. Eating- nope
50. Drinking- Pepsi
52. I'm about to- Take the dog out
53. Listening to- nothin
54. Plans for today- o.0 dunno

YOUR FUTURE:
58. Want kids?- eh
59. Want to get married?- -.-
60. Careers in mind- writer, i guess

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?

68. Lips or eyes- dun care
70. Shorter or taller?- dun care
72. Romantic or spontaneous- dun care
73. Nice stomach or nice arms- dun care
74. Sensitive or loud- both
75. Hook-up or relationship- dun care
77. Trouble maker or hesitant- trouble xD

HAVE YOU EVER:
80. Lost glasses/contacts- once, i think
81. Ran away from home- almost
84. Broken someones heart- nope
85. Been arrested- HELL NO
87. Cried when someone died- yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself- no
90. Miracles- eh
91. Love at first sight- no
92. Heaven- YESSSS
93. Santa Claus- -spits-
94. Sex on the first date- ...pervert
95. Kiss on the first date- pah

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now- nope
98. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life- never
99. Do you believe in God- yep
100. Post as 100 truths and tag- Everyone who cares to take the time to read it

yeah, you'll see alot of WIPS from now on, i'm more comfortable with my Notebook and a pncil, i'll still be doodling with my Tablet to get used to it. But these WIPS will come in three groups, so three at a time so yeah, brace yourselves!

Ok, guys, i now very well that there has been art theft, and i know thios has been in many journals before, but let me remind you, there are other ways of dealing with Art theft ok? We dont need to bite the theif's head off ECPESALLY if you are the OWNER of th ORIGANAL peice... i know you may feel insulted or frusterated about it, but still, c'mon, you don't need to get into fights. You could either

1) Ask the theif KINDLY to credit the origanal owner of the art if they don't mind if other peaple use it
2) ask them to deleat the piece
3) if #2 fails, just report it it the the mods or whjater they call themselfs, and let them do there job

we don't need to kill eachother over something like this ok? and i relize that many peaple before me has posted the same thing but still, we are muture people(or atleast most of us..)and we don't need to kill eachother