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Mon May 4, 2009, 6:41 PM

Mood: Guilty
Listening to: nothing
Reading: nothing
Watching: nothing
Playing: nothing
Eating: nothing
Drinking: nothing

There are so many reason why i am posting this just nmow- and all i gotta say is, God dosn't care about me, so no-one else dose either. Becuase i already know that no-one will bother to read this, they will just look past it as they have done in the past. so i'll keep it simple for the people who MIGHT actually read this.

My mom is dead and i'm living at an aunt and uncle's place, school's almost over and next year's high school. i. will. fail. miserably. I feel like everyone's mad at me and everything i do is dissapointing some one. I like my mom hates me cuz she hasn't done anything to tell me she's watchging me. Is this normal for a 13 year old to believe that god's agianst her and he's just out there to make her life miserable? Or am I just insane?

I'm sticking to the cpu becuase there are some places where i'm just a normal kid and my life has nothing bad in it. Why? Becuase then i have nothing to worry about. So just let me put on my mask and pretend that nothing's wrong.

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~2342 Sep 13, 2009, 2:31:16 PM

I'm pretty sure somebody, somewhere, is disappointed in pretty much anyone. Usually it doesn't matter unless you agree, though.

and I think I read in some christian book once that people can't really send signs or anything after they die. But idk, nobody actually agrees 100% with any of that stuff, so who knows.

/random

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'No one knows who they were, or... what they were doing...'
~ Nigel Tufnel

~Vinzul Sep 13, 2009, 3:53:10 PM

I clicked your username 'cause you had faved my Akreon's contribution to the tapeworm. And I read your journal.

I could actually tell you a thousand things, but I won't. Because I don't know you. I have no idea who you are and what you've lived through.

The only thing I can tell you is to watch "Patch Addams", a Robin Williams movie. There must be many others better for this situation, but watch that one. It might give you some ideas.

~Water-Wolf Sep 15, 2009, 12:12:31 PM

I feel for ya, I know how it is to lose a close very close family member, not my mother or any of my siblings but a dear close enough.

I know I sound like some out of the hills nobody but I do know what I'm talking about. just find some place to be a lone for a while, tell people where you are going so they won't worry. take a book or something with you that will help let your mind wander either towards the thoughts of the person that is gone or away. either way is just fine.

Doing this a few times should help, if it doesn't I've tried my best